Today I am reminded by Philippans 4:6, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
I joined a Mother of young children Bible study at Asbury today. I will be the first to tell you. I was ANXIOUS. Almost to the point of having an anxiety attack about leaving him. I had NIGHTMARES last night and my stomach was in knots until we left. I tried to find every reason under the sun NOT to go, but kept repeating Philippans 4:6 to myself over and over.
I texted my Mom all morning and she kept encouraging me to go. Especially since I had already told the leaders I would be there. She told me I had to give it ONE shot. And if I didn't like it I didn't have to go back.
Reluctantly I got myself ready and WOKE Carter up form his nap to go. I got there and dropped Carter off. My first time to leave him for an hour with complete strangers to him. I know that now is the time for him to get some socialization, but I was still nervous about leaving him.
Of course, Carter did great and OF COURSE the Bible Study was JUST what I needed. I feel SO thankful for my Mom for encouraging me to GO and not let the devil get in my way. The ladies leading the group are such GODLY Christian Wives and Mothers something I STRIVE to do and hope to learn LOTS and LOTS from them. Bringing Carter up in a Christian home is absolutely the most important thing to me. SO, I need all the advice and support I can get from these women.
Here is my 365 picture from today:
I am looking forward to the next 6 weeks. I know it will be a weekly struggle to get there. BUT, I refuse to let Carters nap, being sick or just lazy keep me from getting there. Those are just bad excuses and the devil keeping me from hearing what I need to hear.
Thank you, GOD, for putting these amazing women in my life. I can't wait to see how I am changed. You are my potter, I pray you will MOLD me into the Christian wife and mother you want me to be.
