Blessed.

This week has been a very very hard week. I had a friend who was 5 weeks behind me in her pregnancy. (Which made her 25 weeks.) She was pregnant with a sweet little girl.
I found out on Friday that she had been admitted into the hospital due to preeclampsia. Her blood pressure was through the roof and they wanted to keep an eye on her. I chatted with her for a bit on Facebook and she had the BEST attitude. She knew that God was in control and He was going to take care of her and the baby.

On Monday night I got news that she was being induced because her blood pressure was high again. On Tuesday morning, I got the most heartbreaking news...

She delivered her sweet baby and yes, you guessed it, the sweet baby girl just didn't make it. I was so shocked and honestly just plain SAD. I kept thinking about me being in her position and how I don't know if I could deal with it.

I went out to try and do some Birthday shopping and the song "Homesick" by Mercy Me came on the radio. The words that really hit me and I immediately thought of my friend were "I close my eyes and I see your face; if homes where my heart is then Im out of place; Lord won't you give me strength to make it through somehow; I've never been more homesick than now." I sat in my car and sobbed thinking about them. The pain, the hurt, the confusion as to why it happened.

But, I chatted with her again on Facebook the following night. Let's just say she has the most amazing strength that I know I would NOT have.

I sat on the couch, cried and just praised God for blessing me with a normal pregnancy. Why was I so fortunate to have such a great pregnancy? I took a vow to myself and to Jon that I will NOT complain about my back hurting or little man kicking me in the middle of the night. In turn, I will consider it all a blessing. Because I know, that my friend would give ANYTHING to feel her sweet baby girl kicking again.

I had my doctors appointment and was drawn to tears as I heard his sweet little heartbeat. After this weeks events, there was nothing more I wanted to hear. Feeling him kick each time makes me realize just how blessed I am.

Please pray for my sweet friends, the McKays. They need all the prayers they can get right now...